Beyond Existence

The future holds rings for these three.

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This sport has stolen the heart of America and made it his.

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When you realize that no matter how stupid it might seem, you’ll always always always care.

Went sailing with Brandon today :D

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It’s really curious to find this post this weekend because I’ve actually been thinking about this since last night.  I went swing dancing last night, and for those who haven’t done something similar, it is expected that the men ask the women out to dance and that they lead the whole time, always deciding what move will come next, which direction to turn, and essentially guiding the follows’ every move. Literally, you take the girl out to dance, you provide her with an experience.

I’ve never been too comfortable with that kind of initiative and dominance, I tend to be pretty shy with people I don’t know, and I have to work hard to garner the confidence to even approach a good looking girl.  From the two times I’ve gone I’ve realized that you just have to ignore all that and just go with it, the situation allows for this and even if you fail you’re not likely to face most of them again anyways.  But both times, less than two hours into dancing, I become tired and I lose confidence seeing everyone else dancing so much better (because frankly, I suck, lol), so by the end I end up sitting down and slowly give up, as if my confidence “battery” was running low.

This is where the curious part comes in: both times there’s been at least one girl who’s essentially led me through the dance.  Curiously enough, we were both comfortable with that, and I actually appreciated it because they helped me improve and revived my confidence by what some would consider emasculating me.  If I kept going to swing dance, I would eventually have taken the proper lead and she would have become the follow, but I always like to have a girl that temporarily takes control and pushes me beyond what I can push myself.  My sister and my mom would always serve that role in my life and that’s one of the reasons why I miss them the most.  It’s tough to solely rely on myself.

I agree almost completely with everything after “Ironically” above, but I’m gonna have to disagree slightly on the gender roles part.  I believe different relationships have different dynamics, and while men providing the lead is possibly a general rule, it is not always the case.  I mean, throw in homosexuality into the picture and this argument will go on for hours to no resolve.

Personally, I like girls who are not afraid to “be the man”, who will go down to the school and fight for their kids, who will get in the phone company dude’s face when they’re trying to steal her money, who will take a broken bottle to their husband’s neck when his drinking problem went too far.  I want a woman, a Beyonce with a Sasha Fierce.  But like Beyonce, I want a girl who is naturally gentle, sweet, caring, with strong human emotions, and who enjoys having their loyal, strong man that they can always rely and depend on.  Also, I’ve discovered that I can’t be with a girl who refuses to break a sweat, break their nails, or get their hands dirty; I want a girl who is not that afraid to squeeze the fun and adrenaline out of life.  It’s a non-traditional femininity, but femine nonetheless.

I don’t believe in old-fashioned relationships, I believe in respectful, loving relationships where both partners fall comfortably into complimentary roles.

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It’s a good thing that I don’t have anything to do in the morning because for the past two hours I’ve just been pacing around, thinking about what the fuck I want to do with my life. More specifically, what field(s) in my major am I interested in so that I can choose the lab that I want to work in. I want to make sure that I don’t waste any more time.  Tomorrow morning I’m calling my parents, not just because I missed their phone calls, but because I need their opinions on the matter.

For the past two years I’ve been convinced that I like electromechanics, dynamics, programming, solid geometric figures - basically robots and shit.  But five months ago I found myself actually liking and understanding what was going on in thermodynamics.  Then this semester I’ve found myself increasingly more and more interested in fluid dynamics.  Yeah, I was the #1 student in the class, but that doesn’t always say much; what does say a lot is that I follow a tumblr called fuckyeahfluiddynamics and I stay updated with the videos they put up and most of them are just simply fascinating.

This mixes up things because my track right now is to join a biomechanics lab that focuses on the use of robot arms to collect data about the motion and dynamics of the human spine; it also includes finishing an electrical engineering minor focused on computer hardware logic/microprocessors to ultimately create an autonomous (not human-controlled) robot. Fluid dynamics at the moment is an entirely separate branch of mechanical engineering. I’ve thought of maybe focusing on electromechanical now and then switch gears to fluids in grad school because I’m not particularly interested in electrical or computer research, I’m interested in mechanical research and how I can use my knowledge of electrical/computer assemblies to expand my horizons in what I can do.

Btw, I’m slowly coming to the realization that I might go all the way to a PhD.  Research sounds more interesting to me with each day while industry is slowly becoming less interesting.  I guess I could do research through companies like GE or through government agencies, but the most obvious route is academia (where I’ll also get to teach).  Luckily I have a bit more time to think about that. But, yeah, any comments?

Well said, Hova.

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The next overblown former pop star death? Probably (and sadly). It’s one thing to respectfully honor the death of a cultural figure; it’s another to use somebody’s death to squeeze out even more cash from their existence. Donna Summer was especially uneasy about the profitable sexual persona that her record company wanted her to adopt. By the end of the disco era she had rejected that persona and eventually became a born-again Christian. It’s somewhat unfortunate that this is how the public will always remember her.

If you want, we could also talk about how the uncontested disco diva released the most overtly sexual single the world had heard up to that point (“Love to Love You Baby”, it contained 23 orgasms). We could also talk about how she released “I Feel Love”, one of the first songs to introduce early electronic dance music to the masses, so groundbreaking that Brian Eno and David Bowie couldn’t get over it. She also released some of the only disco albums worth listening to. CNN will tell you some other crap, but this here is the core of what sets her apart in music.

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